I'm not a total kill-joy - I do have plenty of hopes for 2010 as well...Hope for:
continued good health for our whole family (well, you know what I mean)
more great progress for Ashlea - improvement in speaking particularly, enjoyment of preschool, a continued blossoming of her (rather bossy) little personality
for Emma to have a great first year at big school - that she enjoys it, makes friends, thrives on the learning
for Audrey to continue to enjoy preschool, and for the chance to spend time JUST with Audrey on Fridays when Ashlea is at preschool and Emma at school (Audrey has never before had the luxury of being 'just Audrey')
that no one vomits... (have I mentioned my phobia about vomit before???)
that we get a ramp built in the backyard
that Ashlea gets her wheelchair
that Ashlea miraculously gets up and walks and we can send the wheelchair back...
Its just that my fears tend to play louder in my mind than anything else...Fear:
that Ashlea's kidney function deterioratesI guess the really big fear though is (and always has been):
that Ashlea gets really sick and ends up in hospital or ICU
that 2010 might be a close family member or friend's last year
that we will get gastro and vomit (highly likely seeing as Emma is starting
that Emma hates school and struggles to make friends
that my dizziness gets worse again...
'will something bad happen to Ashlea?'Ever since she was born I have worried about something bad happening...and we got perilously close to that bad thing happening a few times. Its a pretty hard fear to shake. And now when New Years Eve rolls around I wonder...will something bad happen this year?
What are your hopes for 2010? Do you have any fears? Which wins out in your head...the hope or the fear?
Sorry for putting my negative spin on NYE!! Its not that I'm not looking forward to 2010 - I am actually looking forward to it more than previous years - there are lots of big things happening for us this year. Its just something about the reflecting that we all do at this time of year that I don't like - being an 'anxious type' it presses my worry buttons.
We are actually going out to see the fireworks and have fun in spite of my dislike of the holiday. We are going to the Lord Mayor's Picnic again this year. It is a huge picnic for children with special needs - free food and entertainment and a great harbour side viewing spot for the early fireworks. Its perfect actually because you can be at home and have the kids tucked up in bed in time to watch the midnight fireworks on TV!